All these christmas things around at the moment are making me have flashbacks of earlier times.
Here is a memory I have from my Grade 1 christmas concert (the same age as Miss Perfect now).
We had been carefully selected for our parts, I was performing on the xylophone, and had been practicing for weeks, even being allowed to bring the xylophone home to practice perform in front of the family. I was so happy, and could do it with my eyes closed, and even managed to stay in time with the other kids playing different instruments. I was positioned next to my 6 year old love of my life on stage. We were all very excited when the big day came, and were to perform in front of parents, grandparents (though, sadly not mine), siblings and friends.
Finally, performance time. Hooray! We all filed into the classrooms that had been set up and took our places. I looked out, saw all the faces, managed to pick out my family and froze (well, what were you expecting?). When I eventually got over my stage fright, I couldn't figure out where we were up to, so, literally, just started thrashing on the xylophone, making an horrendous noise, but just being so pissed off at myself for not being able to remember, that I couldn't stop. I remember the teacher coming and getting me, and literally dragging me off stage while I screamed and hollered.
Exit stage left.
You know what this particular memory has made me realise? that I have always been particularly hard on myself, no wonder it is so damn hard to change.
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Not :-( Ellie, I actually think it is quite funny!
Probably made me feel sad because we have just been to Jnrs first school concert and the thought of him screaming and being carried of stage (whilst in hindsight would be funny) would have me in tears. MInd you I let a few sly tears fall out anyway I think it was because my eyes were scrunched up from smiling so much it hurt.
Oh Ellie! I came in here to confess to having an inner chuckle, but now you have made me feel guilty!
Never mind Jodes, I'll laugh at your misfortune as a youngster!
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